Rainbows : I choose rainbows.

So this morning I was lying in bed thinking about the past 13 days, 13 days of visiting an ICU ward every day, 13 days of seeing (and hearing) new life enter into this world and 13 days of seeing life leave this world. I am seeing God give and take away each day and it brings me closer to Him and my faith grows stronger every day. I look around at the people in the beds and the people standing next to the beds and I wonder how many of them do not have the Lord's comfort.

Yesterday I saw a rainbow and remeberd God loves me. Yesterday I saw my friend awake for the first time in 8 days. Yesterday I got to speak to her and see her response in her eyes and her head movements. Last night I had a rainbow in my heart.

Today my friend is sedated again. Today my friend if fighting a virus on the increase again. Today my friend is fighting for her life...again...for the 13th day. Today I choose to still have that rainbow in my heart...............

Rainstorm in my heart....

So here I sit nearly a year later to starting this blog and boy have the changes that I was anticipating been BIG! But......

Right now I sit here with such sadness in my heart. One of my closest friends lies in ICU and is fighting for her life. She has been there for a week now and I have been at the hospital every day. While I feel emotionally and mentally exhausted, I just look at her awesome husband and can't even contemplate what he is going through. He is a pillar of strength but is not afriad to show he is a man that can cry.

My faith is standing strong and I trust my King in all he controls, I know His hand rests over her and everything will happen in His time.

I feel helpless at times and wish I could wave that magic wand...